The Decline And Fall Of Heavenly lyrics
PUNK GIRL
People say she's bad
But they Don't see
The way she is with me
P is for the painful way she makes me feel some day
U is for Utopia, the other times with her
N is for the new wave dreams she had back in her teens
K is for the kid in her, my PUNK girl
She is honest and kind but in a way that people see
As telling lies and being mean
She has thousands of dreams but what they are I'll never know
I hope I figure in them though
I don't care if they can't see
Just how great that girl can be
But I wish, she'd find a way
To act well, for just one day
I don't mind if they can't see
Just how much she means to me
I still know what I will say
If that girl comes my way
She is hardened to hurt her softness hidden from the world
But almost ready to unfurl
She tries so hard to change but something always happens to
Persuade her its to hard to do
In every film she saw a girl never wanted more
Than some cool boy to love and hold her tight
She wasn't so naive to hope for Keanu Reeves
But still she thought a boy could make things right
How would it feel to hold someone real
To whisper I love you and lean on his shoulder?
How would her heart react to the part
Where he puts his lips close to hers and he holds her
He just holds her?
Melanie, Melanie Melanie lies down to sleep
with a head full of dreams and hatches up schemes
Melanie Melanie Melanie plays make believe
With a heart so enthused if never yet used.
Well Melanie looked cool and soon she had quite a pool
Of hopefuil lovers swooning at her feet
But only one stood out, the boy with the film start pout
Was this the boy to make her life complete?
Then one romantic day he took her hand and led her away
He pushed her down, removed his clothes, and put his body
closer than close
he held her mouth when she tried to scream
it was all so different from in her dream
he never smiled, he never whispered
he bit her hard, but never kissed her
Why does it feel so horribly real
when images of him float back into her mind?
Why does her heart hurt most at the part
when he gets up and disappears with no goodbye, with no goobye?
Melanie Melanie Melanie lies down to sleep
with a head full of dreams, such horrible dreams
Melanie Melanie Melanie plays make believe with a heart so confused
and feeling so used, no love left to lose.
Cathy's part :
Yeah I always act so dumb
seem to fuck things up for fun
just can't stop myself behaving
like my head needs rearranging
i loved you a bit too much
yeah but shouldn't you be touched?
Seems that all i try to do
Is thrown back in my face by you
Why do you need other friends?
All those boys have their own ends
You just flirt and stay out drunk late
Till Im hurt and feel such dumb hate
i loved you from when we met
that's a night i won't forget
you came up i was so shy
i spilled my drink and almost cried
then after we'd been in love
for a year you'd had enough
Upped and left and walked out on me
Who's have guessed you'd turn out so mean?
What did I ever get from you?
Not enough to see me through
Never ever love enough
For confidence to make me tough
Honey please come back I miss you
yeah come here so i can kiss you
and i know you wanted this too
oh no please come back or i'll die
do you want to make a girl cry
or at least can't you tell me why?
You keep treating me like a fucking idiot
But I love you too much
O I don't know
Amelia's part
When you act so hopeless
Hopelessly in love
In fact I forget
Forget you're grown up
No I could never live up to all your dreams
I don't have to be cute right through and
Can't you concentrate on something other than me?
Cos I'm not yours
And never will be now
You've shown me how you are
If I speak to another
Oh can't you see
You've shown me how you are
You're jealous and how far
You tried so hard to smother
When we met
I thought that
that you were my dream
but yet it now seems
seems you turned out mean
how did you ever deserve so much from me?
I don't need you or your attitude and
Can't you just forget now that you ever met me?
FUCK YOU NO WAY
I DONT HAVE TO
DONT HAVE TO EXPLAIN
Don't come to close (Don't stay round here)
And please Don't phone (Even that's too near)
Cos If I see you (Things will end up just like before)
And If you touch me OOOHHH oooohhhh
ANd If I hear you (She will be lost to you once more)
But I don't want to
I remember yesterday
All you did was play (always) your (stupid) own (cruel) games
You make out you're so big
all you did was dig (you'll be) your (better) own (in your) grave
dig your own grave
You say you've changed (Well so has she)
You're playing different games (I wish that she could see)
But if you mean it (Her head is full of crazy dreams)
And if you'll hold me ooooh ooooh
I shouldn't trust you (if she'd just wake up she would see)
But I still want to
So I flirted to touch so maybe I laughed too much
So I teased you
So I said lots of stuff you interpreted as love
I didn't mean to
So you felt sure you were mine, I was yours
So I was dumb, not to make things clear before
So you hurt deep inside when I talked to other guys
SO i noticed
So you gave me your time, love and hope but i kept mine
so i'm selfish
But nothing I did or could ever have done
would justify what you did to me last night
I hear string in songs when they're not there
I see things in darkness when i'm scared
I feel cold out when it's sunny
Make a joke and laugh about it
Feel like you're a moving target
Wish all this had never started
Cut my hair and then I cut my skin
Hurt myself instead of hurting him
Feels like it's a nightmare I'm in
Say one thing and think another
Stay in bed cos you're not bothered
Pray that it will soon be over
He told you that he loved you he'd stay with you
oh you're a fool
don't believe what people say they never stay anyway
He kissed me and then he stayed the night
I can't see that things could work out right
seems as if I'll mess up some way
Hold his hand the world seems all new
Understand things when he's near you
Now he's gone it all seems untrue
He left her he said he cared that he'd be there
when you're scared
(Dont believe what those people say it's lies anyway)
I don't think they will/ I just can't sit still
Funny kind of ill/ Idon't wanna think about it
Showed me that your love/ but it's not enough
I can't ever trust/ I don't wanna think about it
You're there by my side/ then I asked you why
Could it be you lied?/ I don't wanna think about it.
My phone rings but there's no one there (hello?)
All my dreams have vanished in thin air
Was it real when you said you'd care
Once you kissed or did you dream it?
Bought a gift but he's not seen it
How'd you know he didn't mean it?
When he's gone it all goes wrong
Smashed up your home now you're alone
All of what you said/ goes round in my head
when i lie in bed/ i don't wanna think about it
i'm too paranoid/ you could get annoyed/
so did other boys/ i don't wanna think about it.
heard it all before/ gets to be a bore
God my head is sore/ I don't wanna think about it
When I wake up on Monday
I don't know why I ever let you stay
Not a night to remember
I think you'd better be gone by Tuesday
You'll be sad when I tell you
But you have got to go so
Don't cry I know you can take it
Your heart I never could break it
I just want to wake up alone
Im not the same girl that you once knew
Cos now I know what I have to do
So brace yourself for a big surprise
There's malicious intent in my eyes
I've started counting the days with you
And the hours and the hours and minutes too
Don't try to win me with your charm
It'll only... do you harm
When I wake up on Tuesday
I can't believe that I let you get your way
You smile while you're sleeping
I feel sick that I was such a weakling
But this time I mean it
You are gonna go, so
Don't cry you'll find another
Or go stay with your mother
I just wanna wake up alone
I keep my hand hidden from view
A poker face is what's called for with you
I hold my cards tight to my chest
Just one misjudged look, and you'll guess the rest
Look in the glass, reflections of me
My cards lade bare on the table to see
(Look, can't you see me? Acting cool, when
Really I'm scared, that this game's unfair)
My cheating eyes are all that you know
Now you're the banker, it's your turn to go
(You could cheat me if you wanted to
I could not think any worse of you
Each way I lose a heart but somehow I lost the art
Of playing these stupid games, you're gonna win again and)
I don't know what to do
I've gambled everything but you still ask for more
I can't afford not to give
Just one more chance, If only for the past
I know it's my last now
Not much to lose, when you've lost it all
But why must you take it so hard when you fall
I'll pay again at your asking price
I must accept it, but your look's like ice
(I've tried to delay to put off the day
It comes clear you don't need me here)
Dragged through the mill numb to it all
Just when I thought it was my turn to call
(I know it is time for me to leave
Turn my worst fears into certainty
But I can't bring myself to leave for somewhere else
Without you forcing me which you won't do which means that
She was shy her self belief still left a lot to be desired
You compared her to her heroes she could not but feel inspired
She was taken in she believed
all the things you said were real
Never noticed she was feeling just as you meant her to feel
What you say and what you mean
are very different things indeed
what I'd give to hear you say
"It's love, OK"
Never say I'm the one who lied
I cross my heart and hope to die
Never say I'm a clueless tease
And most of all don't itchy chin me
All she said was she was trying
to believe in something new (in something new)
How the hell did you inform that
that she's leaving you
I forbid a single word to leave your lips
Till Ive explained (till i've explained)
well, that's it you've had your chance
I won't tell you the truth again
She is no longer fooled by your sad attempts to be cool
She could still love you though if you'd see her as an equal
if you'd just say what she wants you to
if you'd just say "I love you as you"
if you'd just say "please, don't say we're through"
if you'd just shed your pride
But you never do.
Don't ever speak that way to me again
In that way
I couldn't care less
If you loved me best
And don't say that you can love just once
For always
Try to forget all
Storybook drivel
And don't say you'll never love again
It's cliched
And so deluded
Stop being stupid
True love will
Never die
You don't think that's a lie?
When you're kissing, but still missing me
It's because you want to
When you're flirting but you're hurting still
It's because you try to
When you left her and said I was why
It's because you lie so
Kill your dreams and kill your love
I've had enough
Don't tell yourself that I'll be back any day
Hey you're just dreaming
I know that feeling
And don't keep on saying "let's still be friends"
There's no way
While you're still hoping
We could be loving
Can't you see true romance is dead
Dead always
So your heart's broken You must be joking
You think love is
Ceaseless and enduring
Well if that's so
It's unceasingly boring
No more always
For ever and repititous
Don't say it's groovy
Don't say that to me
Don't say I've had my chance
Missed a pill, it's no big deal (Oh no)
Pat my belly and I'll squeal (I missed)
Blood will often take its time (my pill)
'Specially when it's mine
I don't want to take a test (Don't want)
But I guess it's for the best (to take)
Just don't tell me what to think (that test.)
If it turns pink
What are you saying?
Should I believe you?
Why do you think that
It's the finest thing?
Oh no, not me
It c-c-c-c-c-c-couldn't be
I'm not so young
But l-l-l-l-life was getting fun
I won't believe that you could wish this on me
That you could want another me
Hey hey don't look so surprised (I'm just)
I thought you'd be on my side (a kid)
Kids are dandy, kids are fine (myself)
When they're not mine
It's not easy to explain (Don't want)
It just feels, well, kind of lame (to get)
And I don't want to get fat (that fat).
At least not for that.
I wonder why, why stars collide
Why she's there, why she's there with you
I made a wish that she'd be mine
But she's there but she's there with you
I saw my face, taking your place
But she never knew
What I'd felt what I'd do for...
For two whole nights she was in sight
I had my chance, had my chance with her
But wishing's not enough so I
I missed my chance, missed my chance with her
Please don't tell her, that I miss her
I'm not really sure, If she'd even recall my name.
all words by Amelia Fletcher
taken from the Japanese version of the CD
special thanks to Maha Rishi (dope@uclink2.berkeley.edu) for typing these words